I know this hurts....it was meant to.

I read about the after life, but I never really lived

2007-05-07T17:06:59Z

[mood| Sick

Hello all. I'm a little nausous right now, probably because of what I ate last night.

Sooooooo last Friday I went and bought a car. I went to go buy a Miata but it was only in a stick, so I looked at the 04 Mazda 6s and bought that one instead <3 I really had the WORST experiance ever at the dealer...I got approved like really really quickly (and Andy had to cosign for me because apparantly while I have excellant credit I do not have ENOUGH credit where as Andy has excellant credit, no shit, we ran it and it was a 780. Perfect is like 800) but the people in front of me kept switching which car they wanted, so I was at the dealer 4 freaking hours waiting on the guy that signs the contracts to get free. If that wasn't enough the people in front of us had 2 bratty kids who were jumping all over us. I was like, Jesus people, get a fucking babysitter. The 3 year old kept asking us for a ciggerette!

Anyways, we picked up the car the next day since they needed to do a few more things to it and I needed to get my insurance straightned out. I ended up getting my own policy, because my mom wanted to drag her feet about keeping me on her policy, so I was like fuck this, I'm doing everything on my OWN. So Im paying like 200 a month for my freaking insurance. I hate spoiled people :( andy has a DUI and like 5 tickets and his insurance because he is on his parents its like 80 bucks a month, where as I have a perfect record, no tickets, yet my insurance is out the ass.

I love my car though <3 I'm becoming obsessed ..I just drove around last night. Anyone that knows me knows I hate driving. I like driving in small towns but driving in St. Louis is a feat of it's own. Now I'm all paranoid. its funny. A bird shit on my car and I had to go clean it right away. Andy said my enthusiasm will wear out quickly though. I'm just happy I have a nice car and I'm doing it all ON MY OWN ...well except for Andy cosigning for me, but he's not paying for any of it. :)

I feel like I'm going to appreciate it 50 times more because my parents didn't help me out at all...Like Andy said, his brothers were given their car money (they just each bought new cars and Ryan got a motorcycle as well) where as Andy bought his own (it's paid off now) without any help and Ryan already fucked up his truck driving drunk..a 35,000 dollar truck. I'm sad I have to leave it here while I go to Virginia. :( I think I'm going to let Larry drive it while I"m gone so that he has a car, but at the same time I don't know if I trust him >:( He did just get in a car accident and he drinks alot. Although he never drives drunk so..........

Anyways here is a few pictures

Not a very great picture, but I took it at Jakes house on his porch on Saturday and I didn't want to look like a complete dork taking pictures of my car.I am a complete dork, don't get me wrong, but I don't want to LOOK like one. :-p

Thats my rabbit Dusty ...the little shitter.

Here she is again. Shes like a little dog, she growls. I think she thinks I'm her mom because she adores me, where as she growls at Andy all day. She'll come up to me and nuzzle me, but not Andy, no boy.

They just layed like 8 people off at our main office because they lost some big account. I'm a little scared. Although my job is pretty safe because 1) The owner likes me (I think, Gwen says so anyways) 2) Gwen would take a big paycut if he told her to lay off me or Kari because we pretty much run this office and she never has to do shit. Hmmmm. I feel bad though for the people that got layed off. I mean a few examiners did which slows down our title work which means we can't churn out title and close deals like we should :(

well I'm getting back to work so that I look productive. :)

Oh, I'm ready for it, come on bring it

2007-02-14T19:57:58Z

[mood| Loved

So......happy Valentines Day everyone! I'm at work, so thus far the day hasn't been that great, ya know, busy as hell here, but thats good.

Andy sent me 16 long stemmed red roses. So that was really really sweet. They are making my desk smell mighty mighty good. I love my baby boy. Too bad I won't see him until late tonight because he has school right after work. Sucky sucky sucky. I can't wait till he graduates!

Can't wait to get out of here! I started watching Marie Antoinette last night and it is seriously good. I wasn't expecting to like that movie so much. I want to get home and start watching it again. I also saw the Grudge 2 and Half Nelson. The Grudge 2 was like uhhhhh, not that great. Half Nelson was good because of Ryan Gosling who is one of the hottest men in the world. GOD that boy is hot.

Andy bought me the six feet under box set as a pre valentine's day thing. I love it. I started watching season 4 and its really really good :)

This weekend is MARDI GRAS. Not being a native St.Louisian (well kind of, but moved away) I never celebrated Mardi Gras. OMG what the fuck was I thinking? Its one of the best days ever, a perfect excuse to be drunk from the time the sun is up till the time it comes up again. St.Patty's day too! I know Andy and I are going down hella early and meeting up with like 5000 people. We bought a new camera for this occasion, cause our other one broke in Australia.

Oh we got a bit of snow. And yesterday I worked a half day so I could go to the eye doctor. I got some hot new glasses. I kind of missed glasses, I like to come home and just put them on and relax. I'm sick of wearing contacts like 18 hours a day.

I really have a toooooon of work I need to be doing, hello procrastination. I'm going to go face these blue files staring at me to record them. Happy V DAY luvs :)

Love love love love love love.........

2006-12-26T19:40:04Z

[mood| Lonely

Well Andrew left today for his 2 and a half weeks in Australia. He's in Chicago right now on a 7 hour layover (Chicago is 6 hours away, wtf, he could have driven in less time) then hes off to San Francisco and then another 2 hour layover...then a loooooooooooooooong flight to Australia and then another to Biron Bay or however you say that ..all in all its 38 hours of flying. BOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I felt so bad because I didn't want him to go at ALL, and he didn't want to go either. He kept going "I didn't know I was going to fall in love!" For part of my Christmas he gave me a card and the poem on it goes:

"I never had to ask myself wheter I was in love with you...
That love was there inside of me
Like it had been waiting for you to come along and set it free
I love you without doubts, questions, or expectations-
and it's so different from what I've ever felt before
I don't want to change a thing about you
because I appreciate you so much just for being who you are.
Being in love with you feels as natural to me as breathing...
and just like the air I breathe you're in the midst of me.
My love for you just is"

Then he wrote a personal message :p Just saying how much he was going to miss me and he enclosed a 50 dollar gift certificate to barnes and noble, because I told him the only thing that would get me through his absence would be for me to read a LOT of books. Love it.

the only good thing is hes picking me up a pair of authentic ugg boots while in australia. :p they are so fucking cheap there and I want the really tall new ones, so hes going to get me those. I've been wanting some for a while, but I didn't want the knock offs, I wanted the real things and I couldn't afford them. Luckily Emma will be there to show him what size I need!! I really want a pair because I always wear heels and my feet get sore shopping in them, but I can't bring myself to wear sneakers, so this will be the comfortable alternative.

We had a good christmas altogether. It was busy as hell. Thursday Matt and Jenni came over to drink a little, then got up early went to work , we made our 'christmas dinner' at work. We had roast, potatoes, broccili , carrots and rolls. Then I got to leave early, went home took a nap and went out that night to Luckys to meet up with Kari and Mark, Bob and his brother and sister, Matt and Jenni. It was a White Castle Christmas party, ugh.....I didn't touch them, I know better by now. The bartender got drunk, got on the bar to dance and fell down and knocked everyone's drinks off. Har har har.

Woke up earlish on saturday, ate at Bob Evans, did the rest of our christmas shopping/grocery shopping for the stuff I was going to have to make, came home and started wrapping....ugh.. It was so much crap it was just taking forever. ...Sunday morning we did some more shopping, and came home and wrapped more. then I started on my cooking. I made a broccili cassarole and sausage balls. both were relatively simple once you get it together. Only i had to make 2 times as much because Andy's family is so big so I had to double the cooking time so it took longer than expected. Got dressed, went to Mass. My first time at a catholic mass... YAY. Was pretty similar to a baptist sermon, the only different thing being they have communion every mass and you have to go up and get it, and theres a lot more standing and kneeling. All over it is more ornate. The priests are really nice though. I've known father bill for a while since he is andy's uncle, so I know that they aren't stuffy at all, like I expected them to be.

Sunday night all of Andy's cousins came over and we ate dinner.. I got to see Kevin :) I love Kev. Mark is a vegetarian so he was so happy for my broccili cassarole and he said it was the best he'd ever eaten. Love him <3 I felt so honored being that it was my first time ever making it and all. I used to get teased for my cooking all the time, but for some reason latley I've been on fire when it comes to it. Andy says I'm a good cook all the time. Maybe its because I cook so much now that I've learned how to make things as a second nature almost.

Anyways, we played left, right , center, which is a fun game...then we went home and wrapped and had a drink and went to bed around 7ish. Got up early and did our gift exchange. I got Andy a Cardinals Plaque for the 2006 world series win. I got him the simpsons season 9 or whatever it is, new boxers, new socks and some new clothes. He got me all the Buffys which I need to take back because I wanted the set, plus he go me 2 that I already had...and its cheaper to buy the set. 2 new potato heads, new slippers and a new outfit. Plus my iPod which was part of my christmas :)

then we went to his parents (at this point his little sister maggie was tearing up the phone calling us because she had to wait till we got there to open hers). We got a TON of gift certificates to the St.Louis Bread Co (by the way thats what Panera is bitches. THey changed the name everywhere else but here,but it should be that name everywhere) Chevy's ( I love chevys. God that food is good) American Eagle, more American Eagle, Target, Jack in the Box...ughhh...I don't remember. I got a purse filled with Bath and Body works, a ceramic hair straighner (and I love that, I really wanted one!) and a spa set. Andy's parents got hima lot of clothes and 500 dollars to take to australia. We got Joey guitar hero, I think he loves it. Maggie got the Wii, which she was super excited. Seriously..there were so many gifts that I can't remember them all or start to type them ...

We ate breafast there then went home so I could cook again and then went to my brother's house where myself, my mom, my sister in law , my grandma and my 2 brothers had dinner..andy had to go to his aunts, then he came back to eat with us...it was sooooooooooo good. My brother is such a good cook, as is my sister in laW. Plus they into healthy foods so everything is healthy, but doesn't taste that way :p Stayed there a while, came home, started packing for Andy and he left this morning. I couldn't go to the airport because I had to be at work :( doesn't that suck?

So this week my friend Andrew and I are going to hang out, Maggie is coming over and Melissa wants to hang some so I can meet her new boyfriend. New Years Eve I'm supposed to go to Atomic Cowboy???Some club off Manchester Road where Missy's boyfriend is DJing, so I'm going to be VIP supposedly. I don't really know if I want to go though, drinks will be SOOO overpriced there, its west county. Ugh.

Need to go to the book store and I want to rent some more Six Feet under. I'm on the third season now. Must.Watch. Hope ya'lls christmas was great <333

The most wonderful time of the year....

2006-11-20T22:53:59Z

[mood| excited

I'm pretty much really in the Christmas spirit right now. This week..I'm off Thursday, Friday Saturday and Sunday, so tomorrow is like my Thursday and Wednesday is my Friday :) I'm going to Oklahoma to see all my aunt and uncles, my mom who is coming in from the VA, my Grandma and my little brother. Andy and I are getting our own hotel room though, cause that house is going to be CROWDED. Plus we can't have sex with all those people around, and my uncle is a preacher :p

This weekend I didn't do crap. I stayed in bed...Friday I went out to this karoke bar with James, Christine, Maggie and her date(she begged me) and Tim...We were there for like 5 minutes and we all thought it was lame as hell, so we had one drink, left and went to lucky's, right next to our apartment where we met up with Bob and this other dude and Mark and all his friends came later, and then Kari and her friends. So we turned that lame bar into a happening club :p Then a bunch of people went back to our apartment and drank even MORE.....and I drunk dialed some people supposedly (sorry Alan :p)

Saturday...more laying around till I got off my ass to go to Mark and Karis to play cards with a bunch of people...drank some more then came home and layed around till the next morning when we got off our butts to go to Target..where we only intended to buy a few things.. and ended up buying 300 dollars worth of Christmas crap. Got a new tree, lights, tinsel, tons of ornaments, bows, candy canes, new Christmas rug, new christmas candles and candle garden, christmas cookie jar, etc etc...gah.....but I do love my tree. :) I forgot the hook thingies so I have to get some of those today so I can hang all the ornaments, although the tree is already full.

I also composed my wish list....and gave it to Andrew. I think its pretty nice :)

I have wanted this for a while. I want to rewatch all of the shows with Andrew so he gets into them :)

This thing is heavy as hell, but everytime I see it in the book store I just touch it...I love the Far Side, it has that sarcastic off beat humor I adore.

I'm obsessed with True Religion jeans. Once you get some you don't go back....they make your butt look incredible. :) I love these...

I have so many jeans (I'm approaching 50 pairs...after I've given away half of them to my friends) that I doubt I'll get them, so I'l just buy some for myself in Janurary.

My boss has these and I love them. My favorite pair is very similar, but just a little bit different.

I love these :)

Yeah Juicy is pretty out, but I still love it.

Andrew and I have been looking at rings...The one I want is really freaking expensive. I do'nt think I'll get one this year for the simple fact that we are both BROKE, but hopefully SOON. I can wait cause I want a nice ring.

I don't like the typical single diamond ring. I want mine surrounded with something to make it a bit different.

I REALLY WANT THIS. OMG I love them <333

Again, probably not going to happen. I'm so busy I can't spend enough time with the dog....and I know I need to buy/rent a house or something first. But I would love one..

And of course I already got this...but it was on my wish list..

Almost done for the day....cannot wait :)

T

stizznatic @ 2006-10-31T10:42:00

2006-10-31T17:34:16Z

[mood| Busy

So, I'm sitting at work procrastinating cause everything in this mother freaking office is broke :( 3 of our freaking printers, and 2 are out of toner, but now are malfunctioning. I called our IT guy and a FAT LOT OF help he was. Its the end of the month and busy as a bitch but I can't do ANYTHING because I need the copier to make my packages to send off to recording. :( So I'm waiting on a call back from our Konica Minolta rep (and have been for 2 fucking hours) before I can do anything.

So in my news...first of all my boss Gwen was incredibly generous and gave me 3 pairs of True Religion jeans <33 I love True Religion jeans, they are THE best jeans. Although she did give me a pair of Dolce and Gabbanna jeans too, I don't like those NEAR as much. I also got a couple pairs of Paper Denim's which are really cute. :) I love my boss and her clothes. She buys everything in 3 different sizes so that if her weight fluctuates she has everything in the same size. Thus she never wears 75 percent of her shit and it gets passed to Kari and I. But I'm smaller so I get her clothes while Kari gets her purses usually. Anyways, heres the jeans :D

These are my babies..i haven't even worn those yet....Gwen said noone in St.Louis has these jeans, at least noone shes seen...

And these are the ones I wear the most, because they are the most comfy <333

They are slightly different though, they are lighter in color and the back stitching is a little different. But basically the same.

Also splurged at the shoe store and got these....I'm in love with them :)

Slightly different, the heel is slimmer, but the same jist.

Sooooooo playoffs were last week and of course Andrew has season tickets. I didn't go to any because I didn't want to. I could have gone Friday and saw them win the world series but I told Andrew to give his twin brother Ryan my ticket, so he went as did his dad and their other brother Joey. And the cards won of course, so that was fun :) I was supposed to go to Kari's for a party but I ended up asleep on my couch. Working all the time sucks. :(

Saturday we went to a costume Halloween party. We went as Marc Anthony and Cleopatra. It was quite fun. Heres some pics from that one...

Me on the end, the one in the middle is Andrew's mom as Cruella deville

Me and some guy who was Dog the Bounty Hunter

Andrew and his Mom and I. I seriously looked wrecked that night...

Soooooooooo....my purse got stolen. Luckily Andrew bought me a new purse (its the same one actually, I'm in love with it.)

So much room in this purse.

Annnnnnnnnnd a brand new video iPod to replace the shuffle that was stolen :D And he got me a dozen roses, the other day. Hes really been spoiling me these last couple of weeks, but I do love it.

We've been talking about marriage, and supposedly I'm getting a ring sometime soon, but we'll see. I'm hoping for our one year anniversary. The only thing is...Andrew wants to have kids like SOON. I don't want any....and he was like "if we get married do you promise we can have kids" and I was like "well lets start out with a dog." I want to FOCUS on my career, and this field is demanding. You have to be availabe whenever wherever. You have to work 18 hour days if need be. You WANT it to be busy. And Mary Kay says within 5 years I'll probably be a closer...just going to clayton and working in that office, i see how they come in at like u every day , they leave around 9 at night and they continue working from home. Its good money, but you give up a LOT. If I ever want more kids..I would say I want to be in my mid 30s before I have them. In a postiion where I can hire outside help...

But anyways, thats basically all thats going on. I took off work tomorrow so I could go party tonight, but Its so freaking busy I do'nt know if I'm going to be able to take off now, which sucks, since I asked this day off a month ago, but thats how it is. maybe I can just take a half day, that would be great too. I'd like to be able to sleep in.

I guess I'd better get back and do some work or something. Ugh. I need to win the lottery. :p

Sidenote: Wanda Sykes is freaking awesome. Andrew and I watched her special on HBO or whatever last night and we were laughing so hard that tears were rolling down our cheeks. I love the dolphin bit about the racist dolphin. I need to go to itunes and see if they have any stand up stuff from her.

other side note...what the fuck is up with Weeds? How could they leave us on such a cliffhanger :(

Like a blister in the sun..

2006-09-25T20:37:15Z

[mood| Hot

Jesus it is hot in this office. Gwen has the heat up to over 80. I could use some COLD AIR.

ANYWAYS I had a fun weekend <3 Friday night I got home from work, went mystic tanning, went home took a nap (for like 30 minutes) then didn't want to get up. Whined, bitched and had Andy drag me out of bed, got ready then went to hot shots. My friend Brenden rented a bus to celebrate his 22nd birthday, and we had like 30 people go on it. Of the people I knew before it it was James, Christine, Sarah (B's sister), Shulte, Lauren, Jake, Andrew, Eric, Dane and myself. Then a bunch of Brenden's So(uth) Co(unty) friends went along, so I just met them. We had coolers full of beer and I brought my huge thing of vodka so we could get hammered...went to the Landing after Hot Shots, stayed at Morgan Street for a little while, then B got kicked out cause he was hammered and falling all over, so we cut the Landing short and headed to the East Side.

The East Side is mainly all Strip Clubs, for ya'll that don't live in St.Louis. I had never been to one before. We got to Penthouse and the bouncers wouldn't let anyone in but me. Why? Cause I'm hot shit :p I only went in and used the restroom, there was a stripper in there talking about dildos and then she saw me and goes "Oh I'm so sorry" it was great. From there we went to Roxys which is a nassssssssty strip club. Yuck. James kept trying to buy me lap dances but I kept runnign away. I don't want a lap dance anways, let alone from some sceevy girl that probably has 10 kinds of stds. Jake kept throwing the strippers money and telling them to buy liposuction. Hes such a bitch :p It was funny though. While I was in the bathroom some stripper came up to my boyfriend and pinched him on the butt and he was like "dont ever do that again!" Although we were at the east side for far too long in the skeeviest strip club, it was a fun night. we were on the bus a lot, and it was just great.

Saturday I slept for a looooooong time, got the digital cable hooked up and watched tv all day. I even skipped voodoo, which pissed maggie off to no end, but I was NOT in the moood to go out, and voodoo was a bust so she said anyways.

Sunday was Andrew and me's only day together so of course we *ahem* Celebrated. when we finally got out of bed we went to target, sam's and circuit city oh and the halloweeen store to pick out our costumes. We've narrowed it down to Daphne and shaggy from scooby doo (and getting some of our friends to be the rest of the gang), me being a naughty nurse, him being a crazy doctor with blood all over his scrubs, me being a sexy queen and him being a jester (because my nick name from him is 'queen' and his is peasant or jester.) Either way I'm going next pay check and buying mine.

After all our running around errands we just cleaned the apartment, b came over and got some pictures from the other night and hung out for a bit, then I made dinner and we watched Desperate Houseweives season premiere...and this new movie we watched called Hard candy. Now I have 2 hours left of work and I have to go tanning when I get off :(

Anyways heres some pics from this weekend :D

Andrew and I on the bus at the beginning of the night. :)

Andrew and I on the Landing, right now the street from Buca and the Spagetti Factory. The landing is the shit. :)

Andrew :)

James on the bus

Thats meeeeeeeeeeee Bad pic though.

Eric, James and Christine

Andrew and I againnnnnnnnnnnn (James didn't like the other pic and decided we had to have another one)

Brenden outside Hot Shots

Eric and Shultz

Andrew and Eric at Morgan Street. Right before B passed out.

Andrew Shultz and Eric at Morgan Street. I love all 3 of those guys :)

Sarah on the bus. Love her, she had just taken a cute picture of her brother.

Shultz and James

Jake on the bus.

Sarah outside of Morgan Street next to the bus.

Jake, Dane, Shultz, Johnny (the bus driver) and Andrew

James and Christine

B and Jake outside Roxy's...

And thats about it :)

stizznatic @ 2006-08-11T09:39:00

2006-08-11T14:46:37Z

[mood| Crappy

My head is like killing me. I'm nausaous. And I'm still at work. I don't call in. I've had a migraine since yesterday. I don't get headaches so this SUCKS. LIKE BAD!

Last night when I got home from work (and it LITERALLY takes me 5 seconds to get home) I walked in and just layed in bed. Then I attempted to pick out a movie, took me 20 minutes to find one (Riding In Cars with boys) , ate some KFC and salad and then found out Maggie & larry were coming so I had to clean up a bit. Then Matt and Jenny showed up unexpectedly. Then James showed up. So we had an imprompu party. Everyone loved our place, which HELLO, how could you NOT. My apartment is the shit. Its ground floor which I love. And I spent 250 bucks in target on household shit the other day, along with the 135 spent the other day, and discounting the 200 a few days BEFORE THAT. Moving is fucking expensive. But I have my own swiffer now, hahahah.

The weather sucks ass here.

I got way too drunk last night. I don't really drink anymore, so when I DO drink I don't know my fucking limits. Apparantly ONE drink is my limit now. Which is cheaper.

And I love living with my boyfriend. Morning sex rocks :) I was way late for work today though. Anyways, gg..work. :)

de de deeeeeee

2006-06-15T08:01:47Z

[mood| Silly

Got home from the movies not toooo long ago , laid on the couch with Andrew and we both fell asleep...woke up when my mom got home from her date...had a good day off, apart from Ryan calling me up to talk my ear off for an hour about office politics while I was TRYING to sun bathe...he has TWO weeks left, who cares if Kerry likes or dislikes him..I will say my last few days at work have been LOVELY..I was offered full time the other day...but we'll see. My bday is soon *Squuuuuuuuuuuuuuee* I'm so going to six flags.I'm such a freaking kid :)

NOW

-Is your hair up?: For once it is! Only cause I had to to take my makeup off.
-Is your phone right beside you?: For once, no, it's on the charger in my room..
-Do you miss someone?: Yes my boyfriend :(
-Do you wish you were somewhere else?: My boyfriend's Arms.
-Do you have plans for tonight? It's after midnight so tonight is Thursday..yes, work then Whalens to meet up with the gang as usual.
-Are you wearing makeup?: No just took it off.
-Are you wearing chapstick?: I never do, just lip gloss.
-Are you cold?: No
-Are you tired?: YES
-Are you excited?: Not really?
-Are you watching TV?: I almost never watch TV
-Are you wearing pajamas?: Larry's track pants I stole and a blue tank.
-Who's the last person who IMed you?: I dont really IM?
-Who's the last person that called you?: Maggie

TODAY

-Have you cussed? A couple times to prove a point
-Have you yelled at someone? I don't think so..maybe Andrew when he tickled me, but not bad yell.
-Have you gotten mad at someone?: Hmmm I don't think so.
-Have you cried?: No
-Have you IMed more than 3 people?: No
-Have you gotten laid?: lmao, such an overshare but yes. And it was EXCELLENT!
-Have you eaten anything gross?: Is Applebee's gross? cause thats what I ate today.

SPILL YOUR GUTS

1. First thing you did this morning?: Grabbed my phone to check my texts.
2. Last thing you ate? PIZZA
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?: No, I love it.
4. What's something you look forward to most in the next few weeks?: MY BIRTHDAY OF COURSE! And lots of drinking.
5. What's annoying you right now?: Money basically.
6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships? NO

Q&A

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: Andrew , Mikey

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: The gas station.

Q: Who is the last person you called?
A: Hmmm...I called Maggie earlier today, but not anyone recently.

Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
A: More like my dad because we have the same eyes and lips. I just saw my first picture of him..and I went OMG I LOOK LIKE HIM! It was so comforting to realize where I came from.

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: 3 brothers!

Q: Do you smile often?
A: When I feel like it. But I don't usually. I smile on the inside more.

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A: Hmmmm Maybe, I doubt it at 3 in the morning though! Maybe someone is dreaming about me...

Q: Choose one (only one!) to have: love, beauty, or creativity.
A: Beauty. You can get love through beauty, creativity...well that doesn't do shit.

Q: Do you wish on stars?
A: Not really.

Q: Do you look like mom but act like dad
A: Not at all like my adoptive dad hopefully..hes an ass...

Q: When did you last cry?
A: A month or so ago.

Q: Do you like your handwriting
A: HELL NO ITS SLOPPY.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Depends on my mood.

Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
A: I'm such a loud mouth..no

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Hmmm mine for the first time in a week or so...

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
A: BLUE with penquins skiing! HOT I know.

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
A: Andrew. Sadly thats the truth :x

Q: Is Tom on your friend list?
A: No.

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: a glass of water

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: No

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
A: I've cried and then slept but not actually falling asleep in the middle of a fit.

Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A: probably

Q: Song that makes you cry?
A: "tears in heaven" eric clapton

Q: Are you normally a happy person?
A: I think so.

Q: Is your self-esteem extremely low?
A: Too high...no really ,I think its about normal.

Q: What color are your eyes?
A: Brown

Q: hair? short or long?
A: Its mid way down my back at the longest layer, so whatever that is.

Remember the time that we thought Thriller was our favorite song?

2006-02-16T07:38:55Z

[mood| Silly]

It's 1:20 in the morning and I feel like I just got up and started the day...today the President of the Company was supposed to stop by our hotel or something, but he didn't, so work went by fairly quickly. Except Kerry got on my DAMN nerves. LMAO. I love him to death I do, but he needs some valium something awful.

Valentine's Day was Tuesday, I'm sure you all knew that. I was fully preparing myself for getting nothing for the first time in 3 years or more , since this is my first 'single' year. But Monday right before I was getting off for work a guest ran in, looked at me and goes "stay right there! Don't move!" I was like "Okkkkkayyy" and he ran back and then came back a few minutes later with a dozen roses/carnations for me. It was soooooo sweet. I was touched. Then my Mom got me a carnation and a card. And my brother and sister in law sent me the cutest card <3 And my little brother got me chocolate. So it was one of THE best Valentine's Days ever. Not because I had someone I 'loved sooooooooooooo much' but because a WHOLE lot of people that love me made my day and made me realize how lucky I am to have them in my life. How cheesy. But it's true. Also I stayed most of the day in bed with my HOUSE box set and random bits of food.

I am also attempting to quit AGAIN. Haven't had a cig since Monday. It is now..Thursday. Excellant progress. I picked a great time to quit though..that freaking time, yes. My nerves are shot,and I'm positive Im going to gain the weight. I can't. I'll just start excersing LOTS and LOTS. Okay enough on that.

This guy I know from the hotel is really hot..and he keeps coming in and flirting with me..by his own admission..he asked me out last time but I was like ummm....but he came in today and I did something for him..fixed his room clean day or something and he was like "you rock!" and I was like "I know' and he goes "Well you know you'll REALLY rock if you go out with me this weekend" and I was like "Okay, sure." and he was like "really?". I'm confused if I should do it or not though..I could get FIRED for that, theres like strict rules against that sort of thing...BUT I already told my manager about it and he doesn't even care, like I knew he wouldn't. This guy is cute though :p And he likes to party, so good thing.

OH and this dude I knew from Homestead, hes going into the NFL next year, hes in town training with his sports manager or something. I've seen him quite a few times...he came back to see if he left his 'grill' there. I was like WTF NOOOOO you don't need that. He's like you know what that is??? UH DUH. Anyways I had to walk him up to his old room and he was asking if I had a boyfriend and or course I was like HELL NO. And told him my reasons for NOT wanting a boyfriend..but he asked me what I was doing after work.. I was like "Going home to watch LOST!" And he didn't know what that was...OMG, theres such thing as TOO MUCH TRAINING! When you don't know what Lost is...thats sad. Anyways we might go out this weekend, but JUST as friends, because he's only in town for 2 more weeks then he goes to Detroit or something like that, and hes wayyy too much of a player. I met one of his 'girlfriends' and she's really nice too. But I would like to be able to point him out when he goes pro and scream "I KNOW THAT GUY HE ASKED ME OUT!" Now, he is HOT. HOT HOT HOT HOT. I think hes mixed..or half spanish or something..he looks like Vin Diesal actually. Why didn't I see that before???

Maggie and Larry asked me if I wanted to move in with them, they were interested in getting a town house ..I was all gung ho for it at first...I wanted to be on my own, etc. But then I talked to my Mom and I thought she'd be thrilled about getting rid of me. But on the contrary she brought up all these points and talked me out of it. She was like "I brought you here so that you could go back to school and take advantage of this oppurtunity..too many kids have to work themselves to death to do school and pay bills, I don't want you to have to do that..I have alot of admiration for those who do that, but don't do that unless you have to." And I so agreed with her...I have a pretty sweet deal here...I make what I want , I save most of it for school, she's buying me a car, she pays the rent, buys most of my food, etc. All I have to do is work to pay for my clothes/tuition/Mikey money/other shit I want. Why would I want to screw that up?

One of my friends is pregnant for the THIRD time in three years. SHe already has 2 kids..and she's only 21. I'm so glad I'm fully pro-choice. She on the other hand is not, and will be saddled with another kid for 18 years. I feel bad...I meant to call her back. I don't know what to say though...Okay I'll deal with that tomorrow.

Anyone have any The Acadamy is....tickets for Mississippi nights :( I really really want some...well must go to bed, hair appointment tomorrow and PAY DAY <3

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!

2006-02-09T23:43:42Z

[mood| Ecstatic]

I JUST GOT TWO FLOOR LEVEL SEATS TO SEE FALL OUT BOY! OMFG OMFG I'M GOING TO DIE!!!

If anyone wants to go with me I'm taking offers :D Although I kind of told Maggie I'd take her...but I'll take your best offer :D

Edit: well I now have a date, he's tall and cute and in med school. Oh but hes married. Oh and hes my brother! hahaha! But it's going to be great and I get to hang out with Brian so now I'm officially even more excited if that was possible. He's a fun person to go to concerts with.

Eeeeee!

2006-02-06T06:51:58Z

[mood| Jubilant]

Best pic ever. Need I say more?

stizznatic @ 2007-10-22T00:48:00

2004-10-22T04:50:31Z

FRIENDS ONLY PLEASE

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

2004-09-30T03:42:07Z

...And all the roads we have to walk are winding, and all the lives that lead us there are blinding..there are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how..<That line just so describes my feelings toward a lot of people. This is like my freaking anthem(?) I love this song so much. *Hugs it* I just redownloaded it, I lost it when I crashed my computer like, 7 months ago. I can't believe I lived so long without this song *cries from sheer joy* So today was like a regular day..Mikey is cutting his back molars which has made the poor child so grumpy and in PAIN. So I've been dosing him with Tylenol and Orajel which makes a big difference. Hes not eating as much, which is normal for a one year old but it still worries me. Hes recently learned how to climb on things. So now I have to be extra cautious because his favorite new thing is climbing on the sofa/coffee table standing up and walking towards the edge. Where he will fall and crash his skull against something so I have to hover around him pulling him down going NO! Like he listens, peh. So I looked out our back window and there was this..thing. I thought it was a kangaroo at first, swear to Gosh. I know I know I'm in Virginia, but thats what it looked like. But It was an extremly extremly small dog trying to get into our trash, looked like it had been run over on the back part, cause it was sorta hopping, not really using his back legs. Of course my heart just broke for it and I immediantly went to the fridge to empty all our food out. Gave it salami, hamburger meat, bologna, my ham and the rest of the french fries I had for lunch. Oh and of course water. He kinda barked at me, but when I gave him food he let me pet him and licked my hand. Poor thing. So Matt came home and went out to have a look and was like "This is the skinnest dog I have ever seen." God, If you all could see him your hearts would break in half. So we drove to Wal-Mart to get food. And some treats.And a blanket for him to lay on (we don't want to bring him inside till we get him to a vet for fear of communicable diseases,and if he is nice enough , for Mikey's sake) Then we discussed how he needs to go to the vet. THe problem we're running into is, we can't afford a vet bill. I can't even afford to go to the doctor, and I need to pretty soon for more birth control pills (does anyone know if you can get those at Planned Parenthood and if you have to pay for an appointment??? I really think its BS that you have to pay like 100 bucks to see a doctor EVERY Year to get your prescription renewed when you have to pay 30 bucks a MONTH for those damn things. I mean its BC pills, what the hell am I going to do with them? Crush them up and snort them??) Anyways, I was hoping we could find some sort of vet that would help him out and maybe it would be cheap or they could do the monthly plan thing. I feel so bad for this dog, butthere truly isn't much I can do, considering how broke we are right now. :( I just think its dispicable how someone did this shit to him. Dispicable. If you hit a dog you should make sure its ok and take it to the vet. Not do the cowardly thing and just run off.Gosh darn it they have feelings too. Sorry for the rant, but I am such a softie when it comes to these things. Anyways I think Matt wants to keep it, or is going to let me keep it.Hes not the cutest dog, hes very thin. Big ears. A mutt. But I feel like God Led him to us for us to help him.I already have a name-Hercules. Our dog who died-his name was Thor, so I'm continueing the Greek God name trend here. I just hope he makes it. On to happier matters-uh I watched that show Kevin Hill with Taye Diggs. It was reallycute, I liked it a lot. And then I watched Wife Swap. It was interesting. I can't believe the one woman had 3 kids who she spent *or tried to spend* one hour a day with. And she didn't work! She spent all day shopping (She spent at least 2,000 a week) working out or eating dinner with her husband at fancy resturants. They had 4 nannies for their 3 kids. I just think its dispicable to do that. If you have to provide a living for your family, thats fine. but whyhave kids if you are just going to dump them into the arms of payed help who don't even care about them but see them as a paycheck? Apparantly its common in New York for this to happen. Thank God I don't live there, I live in a place where people actually love their children more than themselves. Its called the REAL world. :)

stizznatic @ 2004-09-28T01:09:00

2004-09-28T05:13:00Z

I like Cheese. I am depressed and tired for some reason. Dr.Pepper does make the world taste better. New magazines make me way too happy to be considered normal. I am obsessed with Green Day's new song. French Poodles stink. I need to pee but am to lazy to get up and walk to the bathroom. Hello randomness!

I've got a bad feeling about this..I"ve got a bad feeling about this.

2004-09-26T04:33:14Z

What the hell does recumbent mean?? I feel like the little lemon guy looks though, and the word is strangely intriquing. Ok I'm a damn dirty dork.

Lets see what has been up? The freaking french poodles are driving me effing insane. INSANE I tell you.What a week to give up smoking, the week my nerves are being absolutley fried. I just keep doing crunches to try to replace my nicotine cravings.. Soon I'm not going to have a stomach left if I keep this up.

Eh I went with Matt to our weekly visit to the grocery store/Wal-Mart. Yeah we live so far out in the sticks that that is like the funest thing to do. Don't move to Virginia ya'll. Unless you enjoy boringness(?) I can't wait to move to do stuff again. So anyways like I was saying we went out and we got Landon his first birthday present. He was born exactly a month after Mikey who was 13 months old today (techically yesterday but lets not be picky). We got him a Leap Frog which is a stuffed frog that teaches him how to do numbers /letters in spanish/english. I think its important to start kids off on foreign languages when they are young, cause God knows I sure as hell couldn't learn it when I was 14.

Then I went to get my eyebrows ripped out of my skull. Let me tell you I'm peculiar about my brows. I like them THIN. I hate thick eyebrows. My face literally looks so bad when my eyebrows grow out. matt does not understand this. He can't tell the difference. I like hate looking in the mirror when my brows are doing the Peter Gallanger thing (Ok not nearly that bad, but it feels like it!!) So for 3 months I haven't been able to get them done, and I've been trying to pluck the stray hairs. This is bad because I'm horrible at that and I always end up with uneven brows. Plus they grow back so damn quickly. So anyways, while I was doing that necessary chore Matt was grocery shopping and ran into an ex girlfriend of his while deciding which fruit cocktail Mikey would like best. She had 2 kids too and Matt said they were ugly kids and one still had a paci at 3. Mikey never took a paci, and one of Matt's pet peeves is older children with pacis. I had my paci till I was 4 so I don't really care. But it inhibits language development and causes teeth problems. It was just funny hearing Matt describe their meeting because he really didn't like this girl and she went psycho after he broke up with her..I can't imagine how uncomfortable it must have been. I hate running into my exes, Lord knows I didn't split with ONE of them amicably.

We were supposed to go out with Sarah and Ben and Amy and Sam but we got back too late which sucked...But today we went to Landon's birthday party where there were like so many freaking people there, Mikey would run from me then get scared and cry out, it was cute though. I saw my Sarah for the first time since, like May. I mean we talk for hours every week but its NOT THE SAME DAMMIT. She brought Mikey's birthday present, a cute jean jacket and a Baby Einstein hand puppet that counts in english /spanish. Great minds think alike. :p And a whole bunch of books for me to read. All chick lit. Loves it. And Miss.Abbi Marie, how she has grown,she is truly the happiest baby. Got that female disposition ;)

Then we went to Sarah's in laws house because Matt, Sam, and Ben were helping put up their guest house roof, so they made us all steaks and I got to meet David, Ben's brother, and his wife, and they are both so sweet. If ya'll could see their house. OMG it is so amazing. And it was a trailer! They built on and redid the inside in wood, and its like humongous now, and the gardens are beautiful.Its truly inspiring. Then came home read a little and watched an episode from the first season of Nip/Tuck. Yes I'm obssesed shut up!!

stizznatic @ 2004-09-23T23:36:00

2004-09-24T03:45:26Z

I feel like I should do an update for some reason.

I've been trying to diet, I really have, and exercise. I exercised the other day and didn't properly strech and my legs are still hurting, cause I was doing squats. I can't believe I forgot to warm up! How idiotic. But anyways, I think I'm just addicted to food, but at least I have been eating healthier, carrots and yogurt and necterines for snacks anyways and stir frys (no meat ) for dinner. I'd like to lose...10 pounds. Which is a lot I've realized.

So I watched Mean Girls, and Oh goodness how I adored that movie, and *cries*I became a fan of Ms. Lohan. O I can't believe this. She was just so adorable in that movie. I really liked Gretchen ,the girl who played her is really pretty I think and a good actress. My favorite parts in the movie was when the gay boy was singing "Beautiful" and the jock threw a shoe at him, he pounds his chest and throws it right back at him OMG how I rolled! And then when hes driving off and he goes "I want my pink shirt! I WANT MY PINK SHIRT BACK!" And when he chased the short girl out of the bathroom going "Oh Danny Divito I love your work!" hell, any scene with that guy in it is fetch.

Omg on Nip/Tuck *I know most of you don't watch but its my journal so what the hey* when Ava was confrotned about making out with her son and havieng sex with him and her excuse was that he was adopted, wtf, and everyone just bought it like, ok you adopted your son its cool to have sex with him. Uh, no. Its still illegal. I'm adopted and thats just...no.. And wtf was up with Christian being so mean to Natasha (the blind girl, if that is her name)? She was so sweet, and he was just a total asshole, and damn does he haveeee to keep going back to Kimber? I like her and all, butmove on. ..

Bye bye beautiful..

2004-09-20T03:20:54Z

Well not much has really happened since I last updated. My mom stopped by the next day for about 4 minutes to drop off the poodles, since I'm watching them while shes in Missouri with my Grandma. She promised she'd call when she got to Carauthersville, but its Monday (almost) and no call (She was supposed to get there Friday afternoon) what a big suprise. On top of that she forgot to bring me the stuff she owes me that got left when I moved out. My over 1000 dollar flute and piccolo set. My geniune pearl necklace that my Brother Brian bought me for my 16th birthday. My savings bonds that I was going to cash in to use the money to buy some much needed clothes. I reminded her to bring the savings bonds and she said she had them in her purse to make sure she was going to bring them. But then when she came she claimed she hid them from my dad and couldn't find them now.Suuuuuuuuure. I love how she thinks I'm so gulliable.

So I had no money to go shopping, which sucks. I have pretty much noo winter clothes. Matt ,Craig and I went to South Park mall to eat and look around.We went into American eagle to buy Craig some jeans, and Matt was like "If you want anything I can afford about 20 dollars". Whats the point of having only 20 bucks to spend? You can hardly buy a tshirt for that amount. So I was like "Uh, no thats ok, I'll just save it for later." So then we went out to see how much the box set of Nip/Tuck was, cause that show is the shit, and I had never seen the first season eps. It was 60.00 at Suncoast,but they jack everything up at least 5 bucks, so we went to Circuit City next, and they had it for 50.00, but I knew we couldn't afford it, so I almost got the Maroon 5 cd instead, then I was like "Lets go to Target and I'll get some Fuggs instead" (they had some atAmerican Eagle for like 60 bucks, but they look just like the ones at Target for 20, ridiculous I tell you).

So we got to Target and I almost got the Paris Hilton book,its so cute!! It is almost all pictures though. Then I spotted Nip/Tuck for 44.00! So I begged Matt and we got it, if I agreed to quit smoking. :/ tough trade but I finished the last two in the pack and I haven't smoked today. I'm trying to ignore my cravings, which isn't the hard part. The hard part is to keep from smoking again in a few months. But its starting to get cold, and since I only smoke outside , I hate smoking when it gets cold..Its ridiculous. So I've just been watching Nip/Tuck, and the other movies we got..we got for the buy 2 get 2 free sale: Godsend, Hellboy, 50 first dates, and Along Came Polly. We've only seen Godsend so far, and it was eh.

If you don't expect too much from me, you might not be let down

2004-09-17T04:01:44Z

So today has been a day. I missed the premiere of "My Perogative" on TRL, by like 2 minutes.FUCKERS! Oh well, I'll just catch it tomorrow *breathe, just breathe* And then I try downloading it, and am almost half way through (as I'm on dial up that takes a hella long time too) and the server got reset. FUCKERS!!ajekslfjsd;flkjasdflkjasdkflj!! God durn I hate dial up with a passion. All you people who are going "EW you have dial up" just eat a banana or something, I live out in the sticks and we don't have broadband here, so yeah.

I cleaned my house today , like pretty well, scrubbed the floors, dusted, vaccummed, even cleaned my toilet. I know you all are like "you don't do that regularly". Well yes I do, at least once a week, because I hate nasty smelling toilets, and it seems that when you live with guys the toilet always smells nasty. Bad aim perhaps? But when company is coming over I make sure to clean it AGAIN. Well My mom was supposed to come, so I'm all excited since I haven't seen her in ages and shes supposed to bring the poodles over and I clean, and put Mikeys little Tommy outfit on him and stuff, and just wait and wait..and I'm still waiting at 9:00, when she said she'd be here at 1:00 at the latest.
So my Grandma calls me at 9:00 to tell me that she(my mom) had to paint or some shit and couldn't make it over. Of course my m om couldn't call me herself because my dad hates me and we aren't supposed to talk. So we really don't, because she'd rather chose a guy that calls her every name in the book and hits her than her daughter.

I'm so sick of getting my hopes up and being so happy that shes going to come see me and having them crash down. i mean Mikey is over a year old and shes only seen him like 5 times. And she lives less than 20 minutes away. I wish I had a real mom, and it sucks that I don't. I just feel so hurt and I'm freaking crying over this, and it pisses me off, because I always say I'm not going to cry anymore and then I do. I just feel so jealous of all those people that have these wonderful caring moms that they take for granted, and I've never had that, even Matt, he can just call his Mom anytime, like he did today, and I'm just sitting there thinking "God, why don't I have that?"

Ok, I'm sick of bitching and crying so I'm going to go-do something I guess..hopefully get rid of this horrible headache.

stizznatic @ 2004-09-14T21:16:00

2004-09-15T01:45:20Z

Well I've been in some weird mood today. So If I've offended anyone I apologize. Its been Flo's time to turn me into a raging mad woman. Eh not much has been going on. Just wating for Sex and The City to start, reading some books, trying to keep whatever little sanity I have left . I'm ready for the weekend. :)

current clothing: American Eagle shirt I stole from Matt, a pair of blue track pants
current mood: horrible
current taste: Dr.Pepper mixed with the stirfry I just had.
current hair: Kinda wet , down and curly (it curls when I let it dry naturally)                         current annoyance: What isn't annoying me right now? My period is the number one thing though.
current smell: Teen spirit? Uh, no I think its just the stir fry smell
current thing you ought to be doing: ? Nothing, I'm waiting for Sex and the City to come on. Got another half hour to go..                                                                                                                   current jewelry: the upper ear stud I have, thats it.
current book: Can you keep a Secret?-Sophie Kinsella,only a few more pages, then I get to start on the Poisonwood Bible
current refreshment: Dr.Pepper, really does make the world taste better..
current worry: Nothing really. Except for my sleep habits.
current crush: Bam Margera.I need to quit dreaming about him. Its quite weird.
current favorite celebrity: Britney probably. I just adore her.
current longing: To win the lottery.
current music: None, but If I had to pick one song to listen to right now it would be Hands Down, by Dashboard Confessional, the acoustic version.
current wish: To have loads of money.
current lyric in your head: Oh gosh I can never remember any..um.."You only think about yourself..you better bend before I go, On the next train to Mexico.."                                       current makeup: None, I don't wear makeup unless I go out really.
current undergarments: No bra (I'm such a rebel) and some weird underwear that might be a bit to small..I think I've had them since high school..so..
current regret: That nice people die.
current desktop picture: My son and Jessie, who is Matt's Mom and Boyfriend's dog that recently died. Its a cute picture.
current plans for tonight/weekend: Tonight? Watch Sex and The City at 10, see if Nip/Tuck is on at 11, if its not wait for it to come on at 12, then spend too long up reading. This weekend? Saturday I believe Matt and I and some friends are going up to the mall to the Japense Steak house, my friend Sarah might be visitng so I'll spend some time with her and her daughter and husband, and I'm watching my Mom's poodles. I also plan on being the first season of Nip/Tuck and watching that. :)
current cuss word du jour: Eh, I try not to curse too much. My mom says its a bad reflection of who you are. But I'm only human I guess..so probably Damn.                                                      c urrent disappointment: That I have to wait a WHOLE nother month to get the OC on dvd.
current amusement: The book I'm reading. Its HILAROUS.
current IM/person you're talking to: Noone, I have my "i'm away" message on.
current love: Well obviously my boyfriend, and my son. But there are a ton of others.
current obsession: Dieting, smoking.
current avoidance: calories
current thing or things on your wall: Millions of pictures of Mikey. MILLIONS. Back before I had to give up the spare room for Mikey's nursery I had Incubus posters, some of Vin Diesal, a Britney Collage I did, and some Buffy collages.
current favorite book: Ever?? that has to be "Wuthuring Heights" By Emily Bronte. But I"m in love with the Harry Potter books too. Specifically the last three. Come on Ms.Rowling I'm waiting with baited breathe for number six!                                                                                       current favorite movie: Fight                   Club ,                                                                                                                                                                   First job: Assistant Dance instructor
First screen name: TwirlingBallerinaBarbie. Shuddup it was a knickname I had in High School.
First funeral: My Great Gramma.
First pet: My cat Rainbow.
First piercing/tattoo: Piercings: Ears when I was 3 by my cousins, without my mom's permission. Upper ear at 18, tattoo at 18 also.                                                                                   First credit card: Matt has a couple, I 've never had one. Except for a debit.
First real kiss: With my first 'real ' boyfriend, Justin 14.
First love: I think Matt. I mean I've had crushes, but I really didn't know what love was until I met Matt.
First enemy: Probley Erin Mcinturf. Can I just quote some Outkast "I Know you like to think your shit don't stink but lean a little bit closer see Roses really smell like poo poo, ...stupid crazy bitch" That was one ugly girl who thought she was fine too.
First favorite musician: Some country artist I'm sure. I liked country and teeny bop music till I started hanging around some 'skater alternative ' types in high school.
Last car ride: Yesterday I guess
Last kiss: Matt went to bed at around 8, so I guess an hour and a half ago.
Last library book checked out: I have 3 out now. The ones I said I'm reading and a new one by theauthor of Bridgest Jones, Helen Fielding.                                                                                         Last movie watched: 13 Going on 30, I think
Last beverage drank: Dr. Pepper
Last food consumed: Stir Fry                                                                                                               Last time showered: around 1:00
Last CD played:I don't really play cds that much. I upload them on the computer and just take out the songs I like.                                                                                                                                      Last website visited: This one, Live journal.
Single or Taken:Definatley taken. With pressure on marriage.
Birthday:June 30
Sign: Cancer
Siblings:3 brothers                                                                                                                                      Hair color: Naturally? I'm taken my stylist's word on this : its a dark blonde, but I highlight it.
Eye color: Brown
Height: 5'5 1/2

stizznatic @ 2004-09-13T00:33:00

2004-09-13T04:45:05Z

Allright...this weekend has been ok I guess. Friday night I went out with Alan to Hard Times, as we do almost every other weekend. We had a pretty good time. I got like a few (Well more than a few :p) drinks and had a nice buzz going on. The only mood killer was this annoying OLD guy who decided he NEEDED to come over and slobber all over us and be so loud. He was so gross and annoying and he like, threw a dollar at us and took a sip out of Alan's 5 dollar White Russian without even asking, and of course Alan won't drink the drink after he slobbered in it. And the drink was FULL! God it was horrible.He tried to touch my hair. Ew. Then the bouncer came over and told him not the disturb us again or he'd throw him out. :) So yea!!! And the bouncer came over and liked asked if I was ok,and told me to call him if there were anymore problems cause he had my back. :) He was sweet. Then Jonathan came after work, and updated me on the Stacie saga. They are screwed up. Both of them.

Then around 12:30 we left to go to another club, because that one club was shutting down earlyish. I was sooo a minority in that club it was like...4 white people in the whole place? But it was cool because I knew a few of the peeps. I saw Shawntay, hadn't seen her since college, so we hung out, then we went to the parking lot and we all took a roll of hilarous drunk off our asses pictures, which turned out pretty ok, I wish I had a scanner to post them, because they are great.

Saturday Matt went with Alan to go car shopping after work (yeah Matt had to work Saturday, that means he worked 60 hours this week, God that pay check is going to be awesome), I was supposed to go but Mikey was a little cranky, so I was like go ahead. Matt went with Alan because Matt is a freaking car expert, and since Alan knows almost nothing about cars, this will come in handy. They didn't really find anything, but I hope Alan gets something soon. :( Matt brought me McDonalds when he finally got home as a suprise, I was happy. :) Its been too long Big Mac...

Eh, Matts off tomorrow, so yea :) We'll do nothing pretty much. I watched this show "Jack and Bobby" on the WB, it was pretty good. It had the kid who was in 'The butterfly effect' (he played a young ashton kutcher, the very youngest one) and I think hes adorable, and the oldest son is hot..so..it was pretty good. Cheesy but good. matt forced me to watch football. Luckily his stinky Steelers won or he would be moping around all weekend otherwise. I'm getting ready to order Mikey's Halloween costume. I think hes going to be a bee..I'm going with Amy, her neices, and Liz and Landon probably. Should be fun. :)

stizznatic @ 2004-09-09T00:52:00

2004-09-09T05:01:31Z

Well today has been a day anyways. I cleaned the floors at least. I now realize I am NOT ready for a dog at this point in my life. How many pounds of dog hair have I cleaned up off my kitchen floor thus far I wonder? And how many times have I rescrubbed the floor after dirty paw prints are tracked in from the rain? Oh well, I love Buttercups to bits anyways , its just a little extra work I don't mind doing at all. :)

Today though it was raining most of the day. I let Buttercup out to go potty. We live in the country and our back yard is probably about an acre or two going down to a highway and woods. Buttercup dissapeared for about 30 minutes.I almost had a heartattack I swear. What a great present for Amy and Sam's wedding. "Yeah, I killed your dog.Sorry.How was your trip?" FINALLY she came back covered in red mud. So I had to give her a bath and now she smells like Herbal Essence! :) Mikey had a lot of fun walking through puddles today, I felt bad letting him do it, I know hes going to like get a cold, and hes never been sick before! Not even an ear infection. But you only live once, ya know?

We went to the library when Matt came home. I just love the library. LOVE IT. How did they ever convince people to loan out brand new books-for FREE?? Who woulda thunkin? So I got the new book from the woman who wrote Bridget Jones' Diary, Helen Fielding. I also got Chicken Soup for the Mother's Soul (Shut up I like cheesy things that warm the heart :p) and God Bless the Sweet Potato Queens. We went to Walmart to get some stuff and Ran into Elizabeth and Landon (her son) so it was good to talk to her. His birthday party is soon so we have to give him something he'll like. Liz is so funny though, she cracks me up.

And OMG Mean Girls comes out soon! I'm so excited. Ok granted I don't like Lindsay Lohan. Or maybe I do...i have a feeling she is growing on me. Why WHYYYYY?? But anyways, I DO want to see the movie really badly. It looks hilarous, and the girls dress well (?) Ok Gah I need to go to sleep. I feel asleep at 8:30 on the couch and woke up 2 hours later on got on here.

stizznatic @ 2004-09-07T01:04:00

2004-09-07T05:13:41Z

Ok today has been the laziest day in the history of man kind. And its FREAKING LABOR DAY!! I did pretty much nothing today of any interest whats so ever...so...

Amy and Sam called and yea! they got married. They were on their way to their next hooneymoon spot, so good for them. I kinda want to get married just for the loot. :p What other reason is there when you already have lived together for like 3 years and have a child? You consider yourself married even if the rest of the world does. But anyways, weddings are expensive as hell. And I ain't ghettofying it at a justice of peace.

Umm..has anyone been watching Road Rules: Extreme? Well I have, of course. :p I thought it was great how Mary Beth got the shit knocked out of her by Jillian.I don't like mary Beth anyways, to be honest I don't think shes that pretty, while Jillian is an adorable doll. :) And Abe got KO by Patrick. YES YES YES ! Finally someone put that idiot in his place. He is NOT the toughest guy in the world, grow up.

I was watching this program on Mistresses and why they get with married men. It seems weird to me that a woman would ever do that to another woman. Not like I'm letting the men off the hook either, its their blame totally. But its like: Don't you have enough respect to at least put yourself in a decent relationship were you are getting 100 percent from the person you're with, and not just stolen moments for sex? I don't know, I've never been cheated on , and I have like this rule that if I ever was, I would never try to fix the relationship, I would just walk. I think I'm almost paranoid that I'll be cheated on. I think I'm just distrustful of men anyways.A LOT of them act like damn animals, and its just..eww. I've had married men hit on me and give me their numbers, and its just like "Do you think I would think that low of myself? Hell no, I respect myself way too much, I respect your fucking wife more than you do you sack of shit." Eh I feel weird tonight. :/

stizznatic @ 2004-09-06T00:23:00

2004-09-06T04:30:31Z

I just finished watching '13 going on 30', and that was a good movie! I'm so happy I bought it, even though I had to watch it alone, because none of the men in my life wanted to watch it with me. :( Well, at least I had Buttercup asleep at my feet.

I am seriously gorging myself. Today I had a microwave dinner (salisbury steak and mashed potatoes), a bowl of leftover lasagna, 2 pieces of pizza, some chinese stir fry and rice, and a little Breyer's Rocky Road ice cream. Thats just too damn much! No wonder I put on some weight. I guess I'm not overweight, but my mind doesn't see that. I need to stop eating. Like seriously. If I could just do one meal a day, maybe some carrots for snacks for the rest of the day...its hard with a child though, because I HAVE to fix him 3 meals a day, plus snacks.. and how can you resist NEW Kraft Macoroni and Cheese?? But food is not a friend. Its an enemy. I'm going to quit drinking soda too. Maybe get some Stacker 2? Eh, I don't like taking any more pills than are necessary. (Birth Control is VERY necessary)

Ok enough about my food neuroses... Amy and Sams wedding was today.. we were supposed to be there. I hate life. I hate being broke, or not having enough money to do things we want to.... But things could always be worse. I'm lucky to have a house, computer, tv, all these wonderful things I take for granted. :)

stizznatic @ 2004-09-05T01:08:00

2004-09-05T05:19:09Z

Ok , I need to update this thing. :p Matt has been off since Thursday of course. Friday afternoon we took Mikey for his one year check up. OUr usual doctor , who has been my doctor since I was 10, and was at Mikey's birth, has cancer, lymph node(I doubt that that is spelled right) cancer, but they caught it early, so he is going through chemo therapy right now and won't be back until January. I hope he turns out ok, I really like him. Hes an amazing person, and an amazing Dad. My Mom works with him, and she loves him, so he must be good to work with also.

So anyways, we were at the doctors office waiting for 2 hours. DAMN. I hate waiting with Mikey anyways, because babies HATE being restricted in their movement anyways, and so he was getting restless. finally we were the only people left, along with my friend Betty and her daughter(shes grown, Betty is like 50). So I let Mikey run around the waiting room. The new doctor was REALLY nice. He was extremly thorough, and he took his time. He made a comment about Mikey's Pittsburgh Panther's jersey first off, he was so funny, and he mentioned how he had a 3 month new baby girl. So anyways, Mikey is of course throwing a fit, because of stranger anxiety, plus he knows hes getting shots, and boy when we had to lay him down for his shots..his little face was so red. God, I cry everytime they give him shots, its just freaking horrible. But he was fine after we picked him up and got him to the car. No more shots for 2 months!

Alan came over and we watched 'The girl next door' , which I thought was cute. Had a lot more heart than I thought it would, it wasn't just some perverted movie like I assumed it would be. I've been a huge Elisha Cuthbert fan since her first season of 24. I think shes beautiful. And Timothy Olplant (?) was in the movie too, which was a huge plus.

Today we rented "The Passion of Christ" , which I thought was really good. Granted Mel took a few liberties with the scripture, but I thought he did so very low keyed, and hey its his interpretation, so who is to say that it is wrong? I cringed so much at that movie, and I cried too , at thepart where Jesus falls and it flashes back to Him falling as a baby and Mary picking him up. Oh it was horrible.

Anyways, we bought 'The Butterfly Effect', '13 going on 30', and 'The last Samuiri'. They have these buy 2 get 1 free movie sales there, so we bought those 3 movies, plus rented a new release, all for 35 bucks. Plus we got a FREE rental for buying all those. I think thats a pretty awesome deal.

stizznatic @ 2004-09-02T23:57:00

2004-09-03T04:11:54Z

Ok, I had this whole little thing typed out and my computer is a jerk. That is all on that subject. *Fake smile*

Is anyone else digging that song "1985", by Bowling for Soup. If you havne't heard it or seen the video..poor you, because it is funny. Simply hilarous and catchy as a case of head lice. (which I've never had, just thought you should know.) But one question. What is up with the hot momma over 40 trend? Lets see we had Diane Lane's unexpected popularity with "unfaithful" (though not so much with 'Under the Tucsan Sun), Demi Moore getting her freak on with Ashton. 'Stacey's Mom' with Rod Stewarts ex wife humping on a kitchen table. And Maroon 5's "She will be loved" with John Travolta's wife (Kelly something or another..I think). Well, It could be worse. I am a Mom, so hopefully when I get up there, I 'll be just as hot as those Momma's. :p

I was watching the show "Renovate my Family". Its a new FOX show, and I only tuned in because the utterly fabulous Wiggins (or is it Biggins?? family were getting a make over for their house/lives, and they needed it. They were on "Trading Spouses" and I could tolerate their family. I never thought I'd love that show but its pretty interesting. Please say that Dave Chapelle is in a court room right now over that shit though. Anyways, they needed a new house, and FOX was going to renovate their house, their clothes, their everything. So I watched, and Dr.Phil's son Jay is the host. Jay is HOT in my opinion. Very hot. Plus hes in law school, has had a New York Time's best selling book, etc etc. This is his pic:

Well ANYWAYS, I have decided, since I can't seem to hit the damn lottery (What are the odds??), I should get my house renovated, which probably won't happen. But I wish it would. They hooked that house UP. THey got a 100 inch tv screen (granted I have a 52. But 100?? That is hot<3) a big old jacuzzi tub, everything was in that house. Oh well I can dream. :)

My little Buttercup friend is here. I'm babysitting, er dogsitting for my friend's whilst they get married (Which I can't go too.:( don't remind me how much it sucks to be poor). She is so sweet , but she keeps farting right near my face, and Lord how much to dog farts HAVE to stink????? GAWD!